How many pokes does it take until Allyssa punches back? ….7

Well, I was going to put in a more up-lifting post, but today’s irritation has put me in a sour mood.  You have a job, you come to work, you do your work, and you get paid.  Simple idea right?  Then how come people don’t seem to understand the process? I’m not here to do your job or cover your work load because you don’t feel like it. And I’m tired of doing the work and not getting noticed.  Or worse!, getting to hear that people think the slacker is a good worker.  Sure, I have my day’s where I don’t do NEARLY the amount I’m capable of, but no one else has to pick up the slack, I just make up for it the next day by doing twice the work. I don’t know.  I wish sometimes I was more confrontational with people.  I have a temper and I used to blow up at people the moment they did something that I didn’t like.  But I hated doing that because most of the time, they didn’t deserve how angry I got.  Now, in the attempts to control my temper, I basically let people walk-over me.  I’ll let them continuously do something that irritates me and I’ll just suppress the anger until I can vent to someone.  EVERYONE should pity Chris right now!  lol  He is the one that saves you all from the “Bitchy Allyssa”, and the one that gets in trouble if I think he’s not listening to me vent.  Without Chris, I don’t know if I could put up with all the frustrating things and people in my life. I just need to find the medium between letting my temper run rampant and being a doormat.  I just don’t think it’s professional to confront someone at work unless it’s blatantly wrong, and I really don’t want to cause any hostility or tension at work.  And I don’t really talk to any coworkers outside of work.  So I’m stuck.  I guess the only thing I can hope, is that I get promoted, transferred to a difference office, or get a new job. Bleh… guess that’s all for that subject.  I’ll have to post what I originally was going to talk about later. (And why the “….7” in the title you ask?  Because I felt like it.) lol -A